stoning in progress

Sunday, July 20, 2008 4:13 PM

aww man people, my first post here...and an emo one**
i guess i will share to you guys somethings that i would never share with others when talking face to face.

been feeling rather down recently.It hadn't been so well for me these few months. there have been lots of ups and downs.

Recently have just find that i feel so disappointed and tired with relationships(well all kinds...) that i have been sacrificing so much of my time and studies to build.Dunno why, but i just wanna be alone alone.Not to care so much anymore.Like why would you wanna spent so much time effort on others when they don't appreciate what you did for them at all. I dun know if u guys understand it but yea. its like u cant balance studies and relationship at the same time.They can never be able to balance in some way or another for some reason.

I have a friend that went bitching about me when i was the only few talking to her when others are against her.It really torn my heart for apart when i heard from the others on what she did behind my back.It's like kinda making use my kindness to her to gain pity from all the other people that is not involved including the lecturers.And furthermore she expect me to treat her as usual after all wad has happen.She felt that a 'sorry' can just forget everything.
To say the truth, me myself, am very aware that the current group of friends i have in school is not very healthy.I really dunno whether they really truly care or not.I like lost myself in them le.Now currently im just trying to do what i wanna do right now and not merely following them.Sounds bad huh, talking about my 'friends' like that haha.

Studies haven't been well too. I couldn't concentrate well too. Lots of things have happened.Studies have been going downhill.Grades are going down.Passion going down.

i really dunno wad to do now.really really lost sia.
All that I've learn is that in the end,
you are still alone.
you still have to depend on yourself no matter what happens.
you are always fighting for yourself
so dun let external factors affect you especially peer pressure:)

Let's have another chalet soon soon yea :)
P.s: i finally did my first freelance for an international company!

Anqi all the way~~~~

Signing off, Pebbles (:

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