stoning in progress

Friday, July 25, 2008 6:51 PM

i wrote this post mainly juz to say..sorry to anqi..cos recently u hv been tryin to contact me..tryin to ask me out for dinner and stuff but everytime i cant make it for some reason or other...this is nt an excuse but i'm nt feelin v well this few days so i'm nt really in the state of goin out..and i didnt only decline ur offer but bernice too..when i recover frm my ill state den lets try to meet ok?.. and also bcos smtimes i'm juz too tired after a whole day of lesson and everyday tonnes of hmwrk and tests to study and do...really sry abt dat...

i really hope u wun b turned off and decide u nt gonna ask me out next time again...hope u can understand...pls dun feel dat we dun wan to acc u or gif u attention when u nid..

and 2 & 3 aug i shld b 95% can..so bernice i look forward to ur arrangement hor...and everytime i ask whether u all can make it for dinner or nt is juz for a really simple dinner which will nt take up alot of ur time. but i also understand dat we r all busy and tired after sch and everythin so juz try to make it for dinner or smthin next time ya? but even if really cannot, its ok de...:)

hongsiew :)

Signing off, Pebbles (:

1:24 PM

Man, seems like a lot of people are emo-ing these days. I know life is tough out there, be it school cliques, studies, relationships or even internal psychological problems. This is not going out to exactly anyone, because i don't know your exact problems, therefore can't troubleshoot.

Firstly, i hope this blog will become a very transparent platform for Pebbles to voice our opinions, feelings and really anything that you want to say. Whatever your problems are, Pebbles will help each other out. I know that sometimes we can't meet up due to our personal matters, but we'll always give each other moral support :) For me, at the start of the year, life wasn't very nice for me in school. It's not like i was emo or something, just that when i look at other people, and i compare myself to them, i realise my poly life is quite no life. Throughout my whole year 1 i have never went shopping or doing fun stuff with my clique. In school, we looked like we can joke about anything, but in reality, after school, we go our own ways. An qi, we are somewhat in the same boat regarding friends. Everything has got to do with school. Even when the time we went clubbing, is also cos the school organise then we go tgt. I was really upset about this. I want shopping trips, sleepovers, bbqs, even just having lunch tgt. Sometimes my clique is just not interested in this kind of things, so i had to live with it. I know there was friendship in my clique. I'm happy around them, but i still feel that something is missing.

I didn't really voice out to you guys, cos i thought i should solve my own problems and stop dwelling in the negative thoughts. And i also remembered i still got the 3 of you. We can still do things that some ppl find childish or a waste of time. Indirectly, you guys pulled me through the tough times without even knowing it.

Why emo when you can be happy and positive? I'm not saying that you should ignore your problems and act as if nothing has happened. You should solve your own problems, occasionally asking for some help. Firstly, ask yourself is there really a problem? What are you worried about actually? I have been through times when i got really emo, then i asked myself, what am i actually emo about? Things are clear cut and im letting emotions affect what i do, so i felt should stop feeling sorry for myself and overtake my feelings.

Being sensitive is one thing you know. It's right to react to something, for example, a change in environment, or someone hurts you with her words, and you react by feeling hurt. This is nature what. But letting your feelings ruin your whole day, and even affect your actions for example taking out your frustration on a friend cos you're feeling emo that day is not really right. Ask yourself do you deserve to feel moody the whole day because of one event? Taking control of your feelings is the key :)

I was just saying how i got through some of my problems throughout the year. It's relieving to know that i still have to Pebbles. You guys are my moral support whenever i felt alone. You guys should also remember this. We love each other yeah!!

ok, sorry the last sentence was retarded hahah.
Just for your info, like what i've told hong siew, i'm pretty busy from this period till mid August, Busy with presentations and CAs. Sadly, when my stressful period is over, the JC A levels period is more or less approaching and it will be tough for us to meet up. I want to plan our next dinner tgt leh, simple one will do. I'm trying to make 2 & 3rd August 08 available for study session or simple dinner with you guys. Can y'all let me know if its possible to meet?

Can't wait man... i miss Justi mom's popcorn chicken and M&M's brownies already!! haha

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Thursday, July 24, 2008 6:17 PM

Recently hv been quite distracted..dunno y...there seems alot of things inside my heart makin a mess out of me but i dunno exactly wat these things r. Feelin terrible recently...fell sick..this made things worse...i also dun like it dat i cant concentrate in lesson bcos i'm sick.

suddenly feel v emo...its scary really..v scary..emo will juz conquer ur heart without u knowin..and most of the time without u knowin y...tears came down as i type...terrible mann..mayb bcos i am sick so i juz got emo and all...haiz this is bad...
AND the thing is i cant eat choc to cure my emo-ness!! cos i'm still hvin sorethroat..this is the worse thing dat could happen when i'm emo...

I miss the pebbles... really miss u all so much...hope we could really meet up soon.

Hope i get well soon..so i wun b so emo..

Hope everythin goes well for you all too...and take care everyone.

hongsiew

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Tuesday, July 22, 2008 5:25 PM

Hey girls,

I'm here to say that so many things happened. and I dunno how to say. Its just, rather upsetting. yeah. BTW, I may not be able to meet up this weekend cos my cousin just had an op, and we might gotta visit her etc. sorry abt that. can you guys see my blog? I've updated more things on my blog.

Justina

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Sunday, July 20, 2008 4:52 PM

hey anqi..u noe..life is nt easy..nt for either one of us pebbles..we all face difficulties, ups and downs..sad and hurtful stuff..experiencing difficult life recently.

Frends isnt dat easy to find..nt to say real true frends..this is wat reality is. Many times when u treat ppl nicely they dun treat u back nicely..instead they stab u in the back..but this shld nt stop us in trustin others and helpin others...who noes one day u might really find a true frend like this..to me this shld b the positive attitude we shld hv. I noe its nt easy to do this but we can still try our best in hvin this attitude..

And to me..relationships, no matter wat kinds of relationships, and wrk.. we can still achieve a balance between them. To me..i truly believe dat we can achieve this...but its extremely difficult..really. I think to achieve this, it requires the other parties' effort too and ur own will to maintain the relationships.
At this stage..i think we pebbles still cant do it dat well..we juz dun really hv the ability to maintain it well enuf yet..but nonetheless we still managed to maintain our frendships and interactions till now...we hv come so far tgt already..nt easy u noe..since we 4 study in different schs and hv really busy sch life...it takes the effort of us 4 to achieve this...

We r all tired but we still try our best to maintain the positive attitude in us..only by doin this we can den proceed wif our life feelin better and nt get all stressed up and messed up.

So i hope u can maintain the positive attitude in u too..so we 4 can all proceed wif our life tgt successfully..this is nt only to anqi but also to justi and bernice...if u all hv any things troubling u all..anything u feel like sayin can always find any of us..although we may nt b able to accompany u or give the attention u nid at the time or help u nid but we can always tok on the phone or msn..some way or other...we will try to help each other to our best...so everyone juz hang on and jiayou ok?! we shall nt let these difficulties beat us down! We shall pull each other thru :D

hongsiew :)

Signing off, Pebbles (:

4:13 PM

aww man people, my first post here...and an emo one**
i guess i will share to you guys somethings that i would never share with others when talking face to face.

been feeling rather down recently.It hadn't been so well for me these few months. there have been lots of ups and downs.

Recently have just find that i feel so disappointed and tired with relationships(well all kinds...) that i have been sacrificing so much of my time and studies to build.Dunno why, but i just wanna be alone alone.Not to care so much anymore.Like why would you wanna spent so much time effort on others when they don't appreciate what you did for them at all. I dun know if u guys understand it but yea. its like u cant balance studies and relationship at the same time.They can never be able to balance in some way or another for some reason.

I have a friend that went bitching about me when i was the only few talking to her when others are against her.It really torn my heart for apart when i heard from the others on what she did behind my back.It's like kinda making use my kindness to her to gain pity from all the other people that is not involved including the lecturers.And furthermore she expect me to treat her as usual after all wad has happen.She felt that a 'sorry' can just forget everything.
To say the truth, me myself, am very aware that the current group of friends i have in school is not very healthy.I really dunno whether they really truly care or not.I like lost myself in them le.Now currently im just trying to do what i wanna do right now and not merely following them.Sounds bad huh, talking about my 'friends' like that haha.

Studies haven't been well too. I couldn't concentrate well too. Lots of things have happened.Studies have been going downhill.Grades are going down.Passion going down.

i really dunno wad to do now.really really lost sia.
All that I've learn is that in the end,
you are still alone.
you still have to depend on yourself no matter what happens.
you are always fighting for yourself
so dun let external factors affect you especially peer pressure:)

Let's have another chalet soon soon yea :)
P.s: i finally did my first freelance for an international company!

Anqi all the way~~~~

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Friday, July 18, 2008 7:30 PM

Hellos!!

I came in to say that, I've changed my own blogskin!! hahas. I'm so happy. I managed to change it myself!! and, it is very cute la. hahas. okay random.

Byes! (:

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Sunday, July 13, 2008 7:54 PM

Since its kinda quiet here..i shall juz blog abt anything random lah..& in the end i turn out to b the one most frequently bloggin here haha

Today i and some photog ppl went to the S'pore Arts Meseum to see some photo exhibition..kinda interestin though..even if i totally dun understand wat the artists r tryin to express haha...but nice experience! :D

The most interestin part is when we found rabbit sweets at the meseum shop, which is wat we ate since child..there were actually chocolate, strawberry, red bean and yogurt flavours!!!! I was totally amused by this mann!!

*Meseum Shop*

*Strawberry & Choco Flavour!!*

*Red bean rabbit sweet wrapper*

They tasted nt bad!! haha i shall go back there to buy again next time! :D

Btw..i noe u all r busy...but pebbles shld blog more often lahh especially bernice... & anqi who hv nt even posted once!

*hongsiew* :)

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Saturday, July 12, 2008 12:32 PM

Hey Hong Siew.

I know how you feel. yeah. I also did very badly. But, there's nth we can do le. since the papers have already been marked and returned back to us. BUT. we can work hard for the next prelims! for you prelims 1? hahas. Cheer up!! JIA YOU!

Justina (:

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Friday, July 11, 2008 4:53 PM

haiz sorry to suddenly post an emo and personal entry...but juz feel like sayin out..so bare wif me yea?...

Todae i got back my math paper..den i got a E grade which is like juz passed and somemore the lowest end of E grade...my frends they all got v gd grades A & B..the more i feel sad. Somemore my teacher keep stressin me..keep askin me i understand anot infront of the whole clss make me feel v stressed and embarassed..i nearly cried out lor...

But later on i was thinkin...dat time after i took my exam i told myself dat i will b v happy if i passed the math paper..and now this is wat i actually hope for but instead i feel sad and disappointed. Then i noe y.. its bcos i am comparing myself wif my frends and i suddenly feel dat i am sooo nt smart compared to them. I also feel disappointed bcos i hv really practiced hard for math but it still turned out to b like this..

But..its ok! i juz hv to wrk harder and practice harder! i must not let this beat me! :D

hongsiew :)

Signing off, Pebbles (:

Tuesday, July 8, 2008 8:21 PM

Celebration of AQ's Bday on 10 March 08

Bday girl & her bday cake

Me & AQ eating candy floss.

So spastic. Great.

Tiramisu!

Pebbles United! (No relation to a certain football club.)

Let's REWIND time...

Orchard shopping! on 14 June 07

Hong Siew & Anqi posing~

EAT!!

Ooh... the thing is boiling already..

Shit. Caught in the act.

What's AQ doing? Beats me. XP

Our ice kacang masterpiece! AQ's one is special with the ice cream=='

After eating and feeling full, we get a little kookoo~

A little more recent....

Slacking at a playground on 19 June 08 (During hols period)
Also our so-called photog session~

When you get stuck, all you need is a Friend to pull you out of Danger.

I walk a lonely road, on the boulevard of broken dreams...

Slacking at the playground near my hse: Our survival kit 3 Bubble tea, 2 popcorn, 4 candyfloss

AQ enjoying her candyfloss

Who's taking picture of who?

Life's a Rollercoaster ride.

HS drinking bubble tea

Me emo-ing, though don't look like at all.
(Last 2 pictures courtesy of AQ=)

Movie marathon at Justi's hse on 5 July 08

Had movie marathon at Justi's hse. Watched Ah Long and A Night at the Museum. Damn funny lah both shows. Before this, we made spaghetti for lunch. Pasta is like the easiest dish a person can cook. And it's so nice to eat somemore! Just do the following:

Put a pot of water to boil. Once water boils, put in pasta.

Cut up mushrooms or hotdogs or whatever u have, put all into tomato can sauce

Test if spaghetti is ready to eat (not hard in the middle). If so, drain and serve!

~Tada~

During our movie....

Our dinner haha!

Chocolatey brownie that Justi's bro made and really nice chicken with mayo from Justi's mom

Cosfest on 6 July 08

Initially wasn't in the mood to go for it cos got projects to rush, but for the sake of our Anqi, we went down to downtown east to support her in her cosplay. Lots of cool ppl and costumes, take a look!